Each day I would re-read the description and think the same thought “I would love this job, but I’m not qualified enough for it, my French just isn’t good enough”.
The reality was that I checked every other box aside from that one, but I just had this feeling that they would reject me. I didn’t want to put myself out there only to be rejected from something that I would actually enjoy doing.
It was a position within my community, a role in informal education (I have a degree in education), I would get to use my skills of creativity, organization, program coordination (which I already had years of experience in). And an added bonus was that the office was across the street from my apartment.
The longer I avoided applying for the job the longer I held off on earning a salary. I was living off my savings which was disappearing quickly. Time was running out and I was desperate for a job, yet the feeling inside of me was so strong. I avoided the opportunity of earning money in a way that I would enjoy because I didn’t feel worthy of it. I didn’t feel good enough to receive such a great opportunity. I thought there was clearly someone else out there who would be a better fit for the position so I shouldn't even bother applying.
I held onto those feelings the 9th, 10th, and 11th time the job posting popped up. The 12th time I read the job post I accepted the fact it was still available for a divine reason and honestly I was just too worn out and broke to avoid it any longer.
I got the job and it was the best job, and the best boss, I had in Montreal. It was also not needed to be fully bilingual; I had just enough grasp of the language to do everything I needed to do in French. I had pushed that amazing experience off just long enough to completely finish all the money I had in my account.
Sometimes you push away opportunities that are perfect for you financially (or otherwise), but they don’t wait around until you are ready to accept them.
Let me know, by replying to this email, if you have ever pushed off or avoided a great opportunity financially or otherwise.
Much Love,
Adrienne